my life's been a mess lately. ok maybe not totally. ive not been blogging for at least a month. god. this will be my last post i sppose? just felt like i had to say sthg. basically the past month was spent making friends, getting drunk. yes you read it right, hahaha. and spending money. fuk. im behaving like im sucha rich kid. but actually ive got a big hole in my pocket. ive not been studying. ive not been a good kid, not to my parents, not to my teachers. ive changed i sppose. i no longer want to keep friends like you who turn out to be fukers. dont think i should make my life miserable. im happy with what im doing now. even if it means that i might just flunk my mids terribly. but as long as im happy each day, it doesnt matter. it feels very good to be surrounded by cute people actually. people who can and will make you smile, people who just make you happy at the thought of their faces and the sound of their names. i told myself not to lose control. but i have, and yes. im mad about you. nobody has made me feel like this before. but its dumb really. since i barely know you. but perhaps its what makes you so intriguing. on a sour note, i fuking hate losers who have no respect for others and break peoples' trust. i fuking hate LIARS who dont keep promises. and i also fuking hate people who act like they care but actually they dont. its annoying really. and ure wasting my time. if you want to know the truth, i want you out of my life as much as you want me out of yours. so lets shake hands, go our separate ways. you dont question me about what im doing. and neither will i. i will not say sorry. yes, even if ive hurt you. cos i dont think you fukin deserve to hear anyone's sorrys. and i dont need any explanations from you. cos uve just proved to me that your explanations are a bunch of lies. and more lies. and has anybody ever told you i hate interference in my life? even my mom knows that please. so yep, i THOUGHT you were different. i THOUGHT you wouldnt be like the rest but you just proved me wrong. i wouldnt say its a disappointment. its more of realisation. and im glad i realised it now.


ok fuk i digressed. back to my topic. im thankful for having sweet friends like the clique. who will obviously never know how im feeling but at least they dont make me feel worse. i mean PLEASE, if you cant make me feel better, dont make me feel worse. fuker. okk no cursing and swearing. i dont hate you anyway. at least, not yet. so dont make me. GOODBYE BLOG. i love you for listening, always. and i will start to learn the beauty of LOVING WITHOUT POSSESSING. i think it would make things alot easier. ure like my drug, i spend alot of time thinking of you and sometimes i feel like im gg crazy. i wouldnt say i love you. its too strong. but you could say that im mad about you. totally completely absolutely mad about you. what an irony. and i thought it would be the other one. hahaha. life is full of irony. and i love life. you made me love my life :D i look forward to each day now. and I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU! we're gonna have lots of fun on that day yes? THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE TO TAKE MY MIND OFF SOME PROBLEMS THAT IM HAVING. although i cant get enough of you, its the pining and craving that makes me go totally insane when i get ur simple yet sweet replies. FUK IM NOT IN LOVE OK. nobody can define love. so FUK to you if you think gg mad about a person is being in love. ure naive and ya, to put it bluntly, DUMB. oh shut up man, this is turning into a book. BYE. and YAY YAY YAY! liverpool's in the semis. omg. random.


and to whoever's reading this, i believe there are NO NAMES SPECIFIED. so stop being such an ass for once and think that im talking about you. please, ive got better things to do. its just a general post. so yea, dont overlove yourself honey.